Sweet Tenderness

Never forgotten in the sweet tenderness

Petits rien chuchotes dans  une petite promesse

Hand in hand strolling through a darkened corridor

Laissant les idées, les mots à leurs propres sorts

Melodious symphonies playing in hearts softly

Pendant que l’âme pense à l’amour en supplie

Longing for beginnings anew born out of fever

Oubliant les maux qui appartiennent à la ferveur

The road is longer than anyone would say

Mais plus douce avec un peu de complicité

Remains to find the soul to carry the heart further

Et laisser derrière un passé plain d’horreur.

Laurence Ramos

22/09/2012

12.50pm

Three Minutes to Darkness

It was a few minutes, no more

Leaving a mind and heart sore

The force at its most extreme

For the pride to remain supreme

Never would humanity believe

What those in the soul leave…

Until you feel yourself giving in

Feeling your strength failing

You beg, starting pleading

Your hand around his wrist

In your head your thoughts twist

A final fight for survival

How is this happening at all?

The air sour stings your lungs

In his eyes your love suddenly is hung

You kick, you struggle to no avail             

After you no one to recount the tale

Around your neck his strong fingers

His eyes burning full of pure anger

Then suddenly your thoughts dims

Still in his eyes the rage gleams

The light switches off so slowly

Until there nothing left for you to see

As your body gives in to total emptiness

There’s nothing left for you to confess

Deep darkness as you slowly sink in

Today for you there will be no winning….

Alone Together

Tears running down the pale cheeks

Heart beating faster by the second

Eyes that never meet

Pure deepest emotion

There’s so much that could be told

Hands never held for mistaken comprehension

Millions of beating hearts whose love is never bought or sold

Yet there is no denying their never failing passion

Time and time again beating for the same purpose united

Far far away from the ones they love more than life forever

In this world and life that suddenly became so complicated

Never forgetting that inside them, somewhere burns this powerful fever

Alone in the darkness of their lonely rooms in their cold homes

Their hearts and souls alone burn in unison

Each minute of their lives inscribed in the universe’s tomes

As those misunderstanding what is understood by a million

No tears, no smiles shared in public yet all known some way

All fading in the line of time and life in a sublime feeling

Light as air yet so heavy in the hearts of those who couldn’t say

What those together bring in anyway something appealing

Laurence Ramos

15/07/2012

02.34 am

Behind Pride

No nothing would let me admit it

What festers within me simply

Held by the fear, my mind won’t submit

To what the heart begs it to see…

Yet it is there, somewhere inside

Boiling over in all manner of ways

Kept prisoner by my heightened pride

Maybe I’ll tell you some days…

Some many times I seem to seek within

What is keeping a light in this odd place

Trying desperately to find it, something to pin

To what is not there, to some face….

Hard to appreciate what feels so good

When it is not comprehensible

Bringing about this sulking mood

Letting me forget what is so sensible

No it is not possible to understand

And my mind still refuses to think

About why I walk about with this emptied hand

And my eyes so often refuse to blink

Sleep is sweet yet seldom comes to me

Every time I close my eyes I see them smiling

They beg of me to be happy

In words that I fake understanding

Never seeing the point of hoping

Not seeking to find this feeling truly

I’ll keep on enjoy it’s presence growing

And maybe one day, why it’s there is what I’ll see!!!

Laurence Ramos

15/09/2012

3.08 am

I wish

I wish I knew
If what they say is true
If your words are heartfelt
Why each time something in me has to melt

I wish I had never
Reached out whenever
Life and hope seemed at the end
I wish for once I could pretend

I wish for no morning
To surprise my poor eyes crying
That my heart wasn't still utterly broken
Why all of this had to happen?

I wish I wasn't me
Just for one chance to be happy
To chase this thing inside
Forever eating away at my pride

I wish she in the mirror
Looking back at me, didn't invoke such horror
That she would fade slowly
And that with her death she would take me

I wish but there's no reason
To wish upon the pillow I cry on
To hope I was someone else ever
Happy and why not prettier!

I wish for the silence
To break along with my patience
To never wake again
This way I would know I wouldn't feel this pain

Laurie
30/08/2012

If Only

And I sit here in the darkness
For companion my heart's mess
Those illusive answers still hiding
My only defence crying...

Pathetic creature that I am still
Fighting but with no will
Life passes me by purposefully
And I watch it go by happilly!

No longer do I care for the light
It can go on shining so bright
I now know it is not for me
Blind and hurt I'll accept I cannot be happy

I was waiting for this to start again
To feel this dull invasive pain
Slowly creeping in on me
Not a friend I'm happy to see

I felt it slowly gain strength
Much to my expense
I see darkness all around
And to it I am forever bound

So much I wish to say
But never do I find the words by day
Yet at night they flood my mind often
Tormenting me, waiting for disaster to happen

I want to quit it all
Close my eyes, let myself fall
Never wake, end it there
This hunting game certainly isn't fair

Laurence Ramos
30:08:2012

I was there, watching her water approaching, 
Yet it was London I was then missing, 
As the cold salty ocean reached out to me, 
It was clear back home I am no longer happy.

As I walked to her slowly anticipating
The icy grasp I had for so long been longing,
My mind raced back to where my heart and life now belong
Yes the love for her has gone but when it was there it was strong....

Biscarrosse, daughter of swamps and wild sands, 
Not matter how long and far you stretch out your hands, 
Even if in life and heart I will always be your daughter, 
It is not for you my heart is running after.

Oh mother of strong and hard minded people
You have lost the charm once bewitching all
A mere attraction you are now earthly mother
For you old and hidden beauty we no longer bother.

Your children have grown complacent
As quick as it left, your sweet pine scent
Along with it went the kindness, the charm
From me you may now forever close your welcoming arms.

In my heart I shall keep my childhood sun
Back from when it all begun
The memories of sweet treats and salty waters
But from you and the past little now matters.

Laurence Ramos
August, 8th. 2012