Silent outside, raging mind
Memories making a soul blind
Sweet smelling mimosa of the past
Aching, trembling heart, this can not last.
Scent of pine, lingering feeling of the soft sand
When the skin longs for the feel of the hand
Nothing seems to fade out of this mind of mine,
Leaving in me the terrible scars of time.
Some days I regret having left all the past behind
Leaving all I loved, all that was ever just mine
Missing the sun of a small town lost in the forest of green,
Leaving me now with this ghost of what had once been…
Then comes bustling Leicester Square by the end of day
Mistakes upon mistakes, lost in words I shouldn’t have said
A morbid relationship, past love, full fledged slavery
What the eyes ignored simply couldn’t make me happy.
And there I am, amongst noise incessant, near rage
Was it too much asked to finally be left out of the cage?
Only to find life is no better within the prison of life once
Awaiting the angry lion to come and again pounce….
Here I sit, in the midst of chaos never ending
Wondering where to go, what to do, what is happening….
Stuck on the spot, praying for something to happen,
For life’s grip on my fate to one day maybe finally soften.
Laurence Ramos
14/01/2012
10.44pm
MCN: CH14A-9JYNF-S76LR
Raging mind is a good way to describe. Raging over the past mistakes that lead to this point. Regrets over the past. Waiting for something else bad to happen. Hoping for once that something, anything would make it a little better.
ReplyDeleteI really liked this poem and the way you express how you feel. How it touches deep down inside of me and how I feel. I look forward to reading the rest of the poems here :)