Memories Gone By

I still feel the cold from that night

Seeing the marks left on my body

I tried with all my might

Not to show it, for anyone not to see

Yet it was inevitable that someone one day

For them to reappear 

Would notice the soul that lost its way

Full of pain, full of fear

And you couldn't protect me, 

I was too far from you to hear

And you were too far to see

That you were the one bringing the biggest fear

I would have forever been in your shadow, 

Being pushing you to greatness, 

Sacrifice more you could ever know 

So long as your life was out of the mess, 

I was there, I saw your worst, your best

I witnessed your words, your heart

I sat in the middle of your literary fest

Yet while always close by eternally apart

This eats up at me, always, always, 

I'd have smiled in your shadow

So long as there was light in your days, 

I would tried all for the sake of you to know

That I would, I will be there never far behind

Always, always, where I can watch over you

If you no longer are in my life, you are in my mind

Until this life has run it's path through...

If only, just if only we both walked on the same road

Understood each other's ways better, 

If only you saw me with a view that was broad, 

You'd have noticed within me the monster, 

Maybe it would have been avoided

But this word means nothing 

It is the master of where I'm headed

And you on that path I cannot be taking....

Laurence Ramos

November, 25th. 2012

The Poet Young-3

The mornings hold nothing new

Just old memories of you

The poet, the friend

The one I thought could understand

Somewhere in my despair 

I lost track, let you fly off in the air

But the piano keeps on playing

All the while I am waiting

For the moment you will remember

That in me you have a friend forever

That life will never go far by

Without you wondering why

I act in such a way

Every time I take a turn these days

Maybe one day you will miss this friendship

Maybe upon my craziness again will you trip

Until then I must move on some way

Waiting patiently for that day

In the meantime look after yourself well

On this I shall no longer dwell

Inside, I will smile at you

Even if the outside one is hardly ever true

Because you were the light in my darkness

The path, the way out of my mental mess

So goodbye for now and be strong

Do not let life tarnish the hope of the Poet Young

For he will one day shine for someone else better

And then maybe you will see what lays beneath the layer

Of craziness and anger, the wild child you took under your wing

But this no longer yours to worry, yours for understanding

Laurence Ramos

November, 25. 2012

Condemned

I'd smile for a thousand years

If you were to push away my fears, 

Contentment, joy and happiness

I would bring to chase the mess

That life threw at you, at me

I would walk each mile to see you happy

Robbing night of its darkness infinite

So the moon could shine upon the tarnished granite

Of the street you walk upon at night

I would be your guide when you lose sight

You would be my inspiration to all I write

I would hide the pain from my heart 

Just so from you I never have to be apart

I would do so much to ensure another beginning

Keep quiet when I lack the understanding

stay away a little to allow you to recover 

N'importe quoi pour assurer ton bonheur....

But all this, this is a dream, it won't be true

Yet if only you looked, if you knew

Yet I am condemned to being here alone

In this silence, because of what I have done

And it hurts me more than arguments and fights

It extinguished that little light

It killed the hope that I nurtured within

Yet I cannot begin realising 

That you were so close, so so close to me

Yet you saw nothing, little did you see...

Laurence Ramos

November, 24th. 2012

Now I Cannot Lie

I was so confused and now I cannot lie
Because I have just realised why
But for all the words written in poetry
Expressing any of it wouldn't release me
From the bond, the link, the chain

That tightens around me, increasing the pain....
I can't live in this silence, yet I cannot tell you
So I'll accept this with a patience anew
The corridors of my nights lost their light
My demons have all won their fights
I stay there, in my bed staring at the ceiling
Not because I have to because of a memory teasing
It all swirls in my head so strong so fast,
From a time not so far past
Words exchanged at a time seemingly slow
When of all of this I blissfully didn't know
But now I wake up with my mind and heart tight
Of where all this was going I lost sight
And there's not much else to really say
Fuck this! I lost you and I lost my way.

Laurence Ramos
November, 24th. 2012
1.12pm

An August Morning

Here is the song of an August morning
With the birds full of gaiety singing
The lush leaves of green
And the brightest sun ever seen

This is the song of a wonderful morning
Played in the heart to the strings of a violin
Feel the air fill your lungs of warm air free
The sweetest morning you will ever see

This is the song of a good day to come
The one that keeps evading some
Here is the morning for which you had been waiting
Look at your loved one still smiling

This is the song of a moment in its time lost
Sweet to me but sweeter to most
And with the words of a poet in the shadows today
I wish you and your loved ones a more wonderful day

Laurence Ramos
17/11/2012
11.44 am

Poems From A Dark Cold Night 4

Little pieces of paper
Marking the time better
Than memory could
Or willingness would.
Blessing from a receipt
Who else but me would admit?
No sleep when words are around
To the tempo of music those are bound
One time in my history
Recorded most accordingly.


Laurence Ramos

9/11/2012
4.34 am

Poems From A Dark Cold Night 3

Words of life gone by
Never back to explain why
Lingering over moments
Time honored homely scents
Yet in the warm heart
Their playbacks start
Smile survivor for you live
So one day in life again you shall believe

Laurence Ramos

9/11/2012
4.26 am

Poems From A Dark Cold Night 2

Could fate have known truly
Of the roses she could see
And the scent gently on her clothes
The relaxing effect of the pause?

Night, former enemy of mine
By your silence you inspire
Words to form each coming line
Like wood fuels a burning fire.

Day shall come eventually
From words she will quite humbly
Retire and resume her day
In her most ordinary way.

Laurence Ramos
9/11/2012
3.56 am

Poems From A Dark Cold Night 1

Night so sweetly dark
Lit by the soft distant light
Small things often leave the deepest mark
Burning the soul with all its might

Silence broken by noises so soft
Low tones, soft breaths, all in the lateness
Memories made of perfect craft
Life rolling along its gentle sweetness

And time flies by slowly
Still the distant light shines for the poetess
As the hours pass so gently
She writes out of sweet tenderness.

Laurence Ramos
9/11/2012
3.51 am

Today

Easily do they forget what lurks in your mind

The thoughts lingering most unkind

But quickly they remember

When they in life suffer….

Easily cast aside you are when you are in need

You can try to reach them, you can bleed

They look elsewhere fed up with you

Those are the ones I called friends true…

No need for them where I find myself now

I fall, I cry, to the sad memories I sadly bow

No need for words, no needs for anything

But to me nothing you need to be telling….

I will not leave quickly out of your lives,

I will hang around like a bee near the hive

You all had from me my undivided attention

Now you get from me a little word of caution…

No kids, no life to unfold will I keep in my thoughts,

You, them, everything can rock along in the boat

While I sail the rough waters of my memory

You will not have a friend all that happy.

For what reason I didn’t crack this time I do not know

But I will not hold on for long though

The silence is bothersome to me

And more of it I wish not to see….

We all have lives, mine is full of everything

I need a bit of peace but this is not happening

I need the stress to leave but it hangs on to me

Like a leech on the person I no longer wish to be….

I am tired, too tried to try

I don’t want to know, I don’t see why

Changes never make up for what was once lost

At a truly life long cost

No you cannot understand,

In my shoes you would need time to spend

And still however bitter the mood is today,

I wouldn’t want you to know this way…

So keep the silence going, it will eat me up slowly

Then of your friend little will remain suddenly

I fail to care if that affects you

I fail to see if any of my friendships ever were true…

Laurence Ramos

5/11/2012

8.54 am