Goodbye, goodnight

Pulling the carpet from under you

You, my lover never true

Leaving behind us the remains

Of the violence and problems

Taking of you nothing

I am now happy forgetting

Our life together

One I wanted to last forever

Foolish thoughts of mine

Destroyed by you through time

The hurt is fading slowly

And you lost all, you lost me…

Lost love deeper than ocean

Broke it slowly in the span

Of a decade hard worked upon

Left behind wife, daughter and son

Pretences were no way to leave

Hoping the love would still believe

Bringing darkness upon my mind

Leaving me to walk life blind

But I emerged from the darkness

Worked my way out of your mess

Grew stronger than you knew

And all this without you…

I've pulled the carpet from under your feet

There is no warmth in that heart for you to greet

No memories worth remembering

I loved you, I knew you but you I despise

I cannot but feel anything else otherwise

Pity for the person who thought me a possession

Of his, eternally devoid of passion

Blind to what was lying next to you

A lover loyal and true…

Goodbye old boy one day maybe

In me a friend you’ll see

Yet I doubt I could see it be

Good night to your hopes

Rolling down their slippery slopes

Of despair and pain

This heart to you is forever slain.

Laurence Ramos

January, 15^th. 2013

Sparks From Hell

My life is a line of confusion

My heart a boiling well of passion

My eyes lakes of darkness

Survivors of life's worst mess...

Your life is the point of ending

Your heart calls mine to be returning

Your eyes lakes of the purest blue

But in this life I cannot love you...

Our lives are far too different

Our hearts to each other much too insufficient

Our eyes meet and create sparks from hell

And we know we cannot live together well...

Your life in mine is a refreshment

My heart is joyful with you for a moment

Your eyes show gentleness to mine unknown

And to save this between us nothing can be done...

Laurence Ramos

January, 13th. 2013

Tell me, Tell me....

Tell me, tell me now 

The way I must take

Why I can't see how

I can avoid repeating the same mistakes?

Tell me, tell me when

Life seemed to leave its track

What did then happen

For you not to give up and slack?

Tell me, tell me why

When I feel like packing 

All and hide away to cry

There is no strength for me to be finding?

Would you, would you have told me

If you were there today

If there was yet another way to see?

If you could have had something new to say?

I know, I know you cannot speak anymore

You are now only living in my heart

Leaving me so often to cry myself sore

Because life thought again we should be apart...

Yet you I see, yes you I see

When I look in the mirror

Those eyes are yours they're not me

And when life did this, it was no error...

Tell me, tell me please

If one day I will again heart your voice

Will my heart one day be at ease

And could I find a way to make the proper choice?

Laurence Ramos

January, 13th. 2013

Nothing But Water

Lonely heart

Lovely mind

No counterpart

Needing to be kind

Searching life often

Seeking happiness

Never knowing what's to happen

In life's eternal mess....

Lovely heart

Lonely mind

Lost from the start

With all complexities combined

Wander far so far

Life binds us forever

Hiding a wound with a scar

Yet it shall heal never...

Lonely minds and hearts

Lovely hearts and minds

Never seeking those lost parts

Never knowing what together will they find

Going through days

With nothing but water

Blind as to which way

Lost souls wander forever....

Laurence Ramos

January, 13th. 2013.

A Heart's Illness

See, my soul is now filling with fumes

When someone I barely know assumes

My silence means I no longer am ready

To be around for you to see me....

Why make uninformed decisions

And lack with it a little compassion?

How could anyone wish for me to respect

When from me too much already they expect?

Am I not now old enough to know

How to act within my life though?

Never try to put upon me your expectation

When there is nothing between you and me but conversation....

And no, I no longer live by the shadows of my past

Could you not simply stop speaking too fast?

I may not respond immediately

But I have a life to live fully

Wait a little patiently, your words will be read

Should you show such a thing, I would be nicer instead...

~*~

Never assume,

For your life it will consume

Never expect

You will earn a little respect

Never should your mouth open

Too fast for the truth to soften

The anger your earned

I hope this lesson you too will have learned....

There is no account between us to be due

I owe nothing, least of all to you

My silence may well have been valid

And your harsh tone left me livid

Pressing me over my lack of conversation

Wasn't a reason for you to give an opinion

I breathe and live of my own accord

To speak in the heat of disappointment you cannot afford

I am nothing but words left upon a screen to you

And with this issue I am completely through...

My own babies in a more charming manner 

Know far better 

Than to offer their ill fated opinions

While assuming that it is for them or you an option

To demand to know for what reason

I wasn't coming to take part in childish conversation!

If you hope to make a friend in me

You will need to open your eyes and see

That I am not that alone in this world at all

And in this ill fated gap you better not again fall...

Laurence Ramos

January, 14th. 2013

Song Bird

And they sang for me the sweetest tune of all

As I sat watching the waters from the mountains fall

The wind brushing my hair here and there

Teaching me that life can sometimes be fair….

But winter came and they sang no more

They flew away and I knew not what for

I sat by the glacial waters of the tall mountains

My heart counting the days with untold pain…

I looked up to the sky so clear

My soul filled with fear

Their return was taking so long

And my longing for their songs so strong…

Spring arrived without my knowing

Their beautiful voices started arriving

And my colder heart rejoiced finally

For I could sit by the water with them singing for me…

Summer rolled like a cloud glides in the sky

None paid attention but all cried why

On its last dying day the birds left again

And the days were no longer the same again….

Laurence Ramos

January, 14th. 2013