Along the paths of my soul

I wish you were here now, just here

To push away from those eyes the fear

I wish you were here to tell those children

That even if this horror happened often

It's not universal, it's not going to happen again

That once this is done, they will not know this pain...

But I wish that right now I was with you

In this life for me nothing will ever again be new

I'm tired Daniel, so tired you see

To wait and wait to be happy

We both know it's only a stupid idea

One that leads people to believe

To accept people who come only to leave

Happiness my father is never going to happen

I could see it in your eyes so often

And I see it every day on mine

But I must stay and stand up in line

Wait for the time that life claims my last breath finally

I must fake that feeling, that notion of being happy...

Until then I'll wait smiling

I've become so good at faking

I often marvel at my mastery

I live along life perfectly

Ignoring what would normally bring anger

Because I know that when I speak up others suffer, 

So I keep the pain and the sadness within

And I live this way, waiting

Waiting for the last breath most probably painful

Like the trails dug along the paths of my soul

I'll wait until I can finally join those I miss

And with the everlasting peace I shall know bliss

I would no longer cry in secret as I so often do

When in the middle of the day I can hear you

Singing to those old songs you used to play

Yes, I shall join you, sooner or later, I too will be on my way....

Laurence Ramos

5/2/2013